Officially OLD!

I do believe attending one's 20th High School reunion shoves you into the "You are OLD!" category. Tonight is my official shove.

I cannot believe it has been 20 years but then again I can believe it. It seems like several life times have past. I am so different now.

I was very shy and unsure of myself. I was scared of my own shadow. Unbelievably naive. I was chubby and couldn't dress myself at all (thankfully we had school uniforms). I shudder to think of the things that I could have worn! I was not one of the popular kids but I also wasn't un-popular. I think I was in the middle somewhere. I had no clue what to do with my hair or makeup.

I did have a very strong circle of friends. The strength in friendships have stayed with me. I got relatively good grades without trying too hard. I can only imagine how well I could have done if I actually tried. That bit me in the ass in college, by the way.

Now....I am certainly NOT shy. I am not sure when that transition occurred. I cannot pin point the moment I broke out of my shell. It must have been gradual. I am pretty open now....speaking my mind even when it is not appropriate (I need to work on that!). I do tend to be quiet around new people, I don't think I am being shy around them....I think it is more like I don't want to scare them away with my sarcastic opinions of life.

I still have no clue how to dress myself. That is pretty evident. I definitely have more confidence and increased self esteem. I have to say though....who has self esteem in High School? Teenagers are pretty brutal. I should know...I was one of them!

Unfortunately, my Best Friend T will not be attending tonight. That makes me sad. She lives in another state and I haven't seen her in a while. But my old HS friend H will be there! Looking very forward to seeing her.

Tonight will be very interesting! I am looking forward to seeing everyone and hearing about peoples lives.