Stress spectrum

(I started this entry last week….I am just posting it now…that has been my life for the last couple of months (just in case you couldn’t tell from my lack of posting). Where have the months gone? Believe me, you are not the only thing that I have been neglecting….Let’s see….I haven’t talked to my mother in over 2 months, no fault of hers. She has called and left me messages and I just cannot seem to call her back! My exercise is waning (which I HATE….last summer, I walked three times a day. Now I am lucky that I can fit 20 minutes of something in the morning) AND I was three months late for my Gyno appointment and so begins my story……)

Wednesday morning I had a 9:00 am gyno appointment. (No…that is not the stressful part. Dare I say going to the gyno doesn’t bother me in the least? There I said it.) My doctor is about 30 minutes away. The plan was to go to the doctor and then drive to work. My 30 minute drive was uneventful. I listened to the radio then a cd. I got to the doctor’s office, I was there for maybe 30 minutes. Very wham bam thank you ma’am (was that weird?).

After the doctor visit, I stopped at DD and got a large French vanilla coffee. As I was driving to work, I was drinking my coffee and listening to one of my new favorite cd’s (“Undiscovered” by James Morrison…the other favorite is “Only by Night” by Kings of Leon). I don’t know if it was the combination of the vanilla coffee, the music, and the sunshine…whatever it was….I was becoming totally and completely relaxed. Happy, even. This pure, unconditional relaxation lasted my entire drive. I even thought to myself “Wow, I haven’t felt like this in months.”

Then I pulled into the other place I now call home….you know the one with the mouse. My relaxed state slowly drained out of me. As the day progressed, more relaxation was draining. I think my relaxed bank account was now in the negative numbers. I left work (late of course…who leaves on time anymore?!?!), I had a wicked headache and I could barely move my neck. I could feel the balls of tension in my shoulders, back and neck.

I don’t recall a day like this. I rode the Stress spectrum and I didn’t even win a freakin’ prize. I can only be thankful for the 30 minutes of relaxation that I actually had.

In my estimation, my work life (and in turn my home/personal life) will remain in turmoil for another….3 to 4 months (Yeah….MONTHS).

Ahhhhhh, Bloody Hell.